Challenges.

Assalamualaikum!

To start off, I am so grateful that Allah has chosen me to be here, in Universiti Putra Malaysia. It might not be the best for you, but I am confident that it is the best for me, Alhamdulillah. So, yesterday I had a group discussion at one of the university's cafeteria which I can say is nearby the college I am currently practicing "my new lifestyle" right now. I took some time looking around. I took some time thinking while looking around. Immediately, I say to myself.

"This is it. This is the life. The life on campus. The life that you have been yearning for so bad. The life where to be myself is not even an option. The life full of thorns. The life that will test your faith as well as your patience."

All my life, I have been in a private school, preschool included. I am not even joking. Once i turned 18, I am being thrown in a government university. MasyaAllah, this is to test what have been taught to me for the past 17 years of my life. It is so wonderful how all of that is clear for me, Alhamdulillah.

In a situation like this, a situation where I have the opportunity to meet various people from various places and backgrounds makes me wonder and ponder, "Will I meet the person whose her heart is attached to Allah SWT?". That is literally THE BIG question that plays in my mind. Whatever it is, taqwa check is important. So....THE BIGGEST question should be, "Is MY HEART attached to Allah SWT?". They say, to find a good person is to be good yourself. I know most people would apply that to finding their life companion but I believe this would work in finding a good friend as well. Aren't friends considered to be life companions too?

When thinking and speaking about challenges, the first thing that pops into my mind would be the big, severe incident of Taif that Rasulullah SAW went through. It gets me everytime, EVERYTIME. When I feel like giving up with the lab reports that I assume are in abundance, hours and hours of lectures and tutorials, I think about what Rasulullah SAW had to go through at that phase. The phase where his beloved wife and uncle returned to Allah SWT simultaneously. The phase where he bled so bad that if people knew his worth, people would restraint his blood from flowing out of his body. What more can we really go through?

Know this, I have to face what is reality and grow up. The challenges that Allah grants me is only to make my faith in Him stronger. The calamities Allah grants US is only to make US, as an ummah stronger.

Isn't it better to be significant to Allah SWT by Him testing us rather than feel nothing at all?