eh?

Life.
Ya Allah, why is it so difficult?

Death.
Ya Allah, why am I feeling that I am not ready for it?

Ya Allah. Why am I so ungrateful? I keep thinking that everything is difficult. I should learn to be more grateful due to the fact that Allah has grant me a good, stable life. Mashaa Allah. Each time I read the Quran, I feel so happy reading the verses mentioning Jannah and the all the goods of Jannah that all the Mu'mineen will receive. Subhanallah. I am determined to be more "imanfull" :D

Suddenly, shaitaan comes and be like, "ARE YOU SURE YOURE PART OF THE MU'MINEEN?"
And then, it somehow affected me, then I start saying in my head, "Ya Allah, my sins are too much, i dont think I am part of the mu'mineen heck FAR from the muqarrabin, so far, too far. I am so worried of my faith."
Shaitaan says, "might as well you dont do anything. You dont get neither sins nor rewards from Allah SWT".
and then I start thinking, "oh yeah! but im not sure if its a good idea to be in the safe zone. I do want to contribute something to the ummah."

And then I end feeling unworthy.
This keeps me thinking, if this happens to me, or any one of us, am I, are we grateful enough?
I dont know...myself.
But dont worry, Allah is so forgiving that when you say, "O Allah, you are my creator, forgive me!", Allah says, "O my slave! I love you and you are forgiven!". Just believe that and you will be the most peaceful person walking on the surface of this earth.

I should stop comparing myself with others, instead, I focus on my own imaan and faith and if Allah wills it, I would want to help others to increase their imaan. But, I should spend most of my time, thinking about MY OWN akhlaq, MY OWN faith, MY OWN ibadah. Trust yourself, you will be free of depression and stress.

woke woke leggo leggo boleh punyaaaaaaa yang penting, bismillah. Allah oh Allah, kami semua love you so much we hope you love us juga, hi hi hi hi hi hi!
*Its okay to be mengada with Allah kan hihi*